Slow down.
Lets just linger here
and not move on.
Tuesday, November 10, 2009!
HandWritten on; 6:08 AM
Nomis bravely ordered a bowl of chilli soup. HAHAH!
The SMU YCC leaders. So nice to happen to have dinner with them today. Heh. =))) Its almost like a reunion.
So this bunch of us plus Yihan, Eric and Elyna, we went over to Rachael's to surprise her. And damn we were good, caught her totally off guard. We even entered her apartment and just as we were about to open her room's door, she actually opened the door and gave me a fright. =/ She greeted us with a "wah fuck!" but why am I not surprised. HAHAHHA!
I guess it was all worth the wait of 7 hours. I waited 7 hours for this and I'm so impressed with myself. I actually studied so hard today, I feel like my brain cells are actively dead (if that made sense). Finally my brain was put to use again after several days of videoing and nuaing and sleeping.
I really study better in the Sun. First I was at the rooftop and it was nice and warm. Then when the sun got too blazing hot, I went to the members lounge, got harrassed by a weird lady and nearly fell aslp in the air con room. Totally unproductive with aircon and comfy sofas. Then I decided to head out into the sun again at the terrace. Awesome. I like studying at the terrace. I can blast the music as I please, and pretend that the balcony was all mine.
I like to make belief. Must be too much Barney & Friends when I was younger.
Monday, November 09, 2009!
HandWritten on; 5:44 AM
Bye bye 2009 Term 1. Time does pass really quickly. Like a bullet maglev train or sth. I must say, this sem I got the perfect timetable. The Mon-Wed timetable, with no breaks in between and I get to leave school early afternoon. But I've learnt that the perfect timetable is not a perfect study plan. I'm not admitting defeat before the exams, but I didnt quite enjoy myself this Sem. Not in school but I enjoyed alot outside school. Is this the memories of SMU that I want to take away when I graduate? Do I want memories of SMU or do I want memories of the freedom of tertiary education?
Next Sem would be a different challenge all together. I might even end up with a 5 day work week. But honestly, I'm not fighting against it. It might be good. I guess everything is of no weight to me, its my mind that is always fixing things up and making beliefs. Its really Mind over Body, not exactly in a very positive way all the time.
I will mug when tomorrow comes. =) I will sleep early tonight for a whole day of mugging tomorrow. CHARGEEEEEEEEEEEE!
I really like listening to love songs on Class 95. I dont know how to express this reliance on this prog on the radio. Its like my vitamins to a soothing mind before I sleep.
Sunday, November 08, 2009!
HandWritten on; 7:38 AM
Talking about Zhonghua with Edward, Yuting, Aud and Lu just now and it got me imagining again.
Prom 2010 for 05 graduates, which is ME! I always wanted to go for Prom with my date, but still be able to have fun with all my friends. I bet it will be damn fun cause everyone kinda knows each other. Ultimate camwhore session la. I think this whole prom imagination will be stuck in my head long enough to make me happy this week. =)
And Dear bought me 2 tiggers! =DD They are Post-Field-Camp-Mthsary Tiggers.
Happy 63 Mthsary!
I will be fine this week. Thanks to my friends who are always there for me. I must thank Rachael who is always talking to me every single night. HA. And Kunloong who is always available for me to disturb and Wuihou for talking to me online that day also. I guess timing is very important for people to talk to me.
This week I will mug real hard. I MUST! I made a promise to Dear. =)
Saturday, November 07, 2009!
HandWritten on; 7:15 AM
I'm a horrrrible girlfriend. I always make Samuel sad and reluctant when I keep telling him how sad and reluctant I am. But I am really sad and reluctant. But I should have lied to him..
I'm a goner. Why am I not at the bottom of the well yet? I just keep falling and falling and falling. I'm practically like a lost soul who cant wake up every day cause Samuel is not there. I have no mood for anything at all.
I should just die laaaaa.
Friday, November 06, 2009!
HandWritten on; 9:29 PM
Sometimes I'm too hard on myself.
Sometimes I let myself off too easily.
Are there self disciplinary classes out there?
I need to take one up.
Thursday, November 05, 2009!
HandWritten on; 6:45 AM
In an interview when you are asked "why do you think SMU is better than NTU/ NUS?", my prof taught us to say the good stuff SMU has and mention that you cant compare it with NTU and NUS cause you are not studying in those colleges.
I guess thats being tactful and sensitive. And very smart. And not being pompous about yourself.
If you dont know something/someone well enough, dont conclude things about them. Its almost 95% sure that you concluded something wrong about it and you just made yourself look bad, you just made the whole world know how big a fool you are, with your shallow but loud comments. Your conclusions are never backed up with clear evidence but you just seem so sure about them. I really wonder if you ever take a peek out of your box to look at the world. You are not the only type of human being who survived. Your schedule and mine, your workload and mine, they are never the same.
So if you are in stuck in a different phrase of life, in a different education system, in a different job scope, in a different environment, dont conclude things about my life. Cause you know what, you get it wrong all the time and it just pisses me off real badly. Even worse if you keep insisting and showing me your fucked up attitude, which you have no right to display.
Dont get too stuck in your head. Theres a world and a life outside that windbag of yours.
After re-reading this post again, I realised there is more than 1 person who may fit into this category and actually reads my blog. Mmm, no rewards for guessing the right person who fit the bill.
Coincidentally, both my camp buddies love to call me a bitch. Maybe I am a bitch. A closet one.
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HandWritten on; 12:17 AM
Baking was successful today! Raspberry crumble, served with Milo icecream (I only had milo icecream at home). It may not look very appealing, but it tastes goooooood. Sweetness of the crumble with the tingling sour taste of the melted raspberries. Shiok shiok. =)
I want to do more for the marketing project. ARGH. I keep thinking that theres more potential, we can make it more impressive. Whats missing? I have a very strong feeling that the other groups will be very very WOW.
Wednesday, November 04, 2009!
HandWritten on; 9:46 AM
Frolicking on fake grass.
15 minutes has great food. My fish and chips tasted awesome. And Jean's Orange Salmon tasted super good too. I'm actually craving for it now.
I like sitting on the ground. Makes me more in sync with the environment, more calm with my emotions, and more aligned with my thoughts. Its just the feeling of being at ease and not bothering about tomorrow that I really like. The weather was just right. We were protected by the shelters, but not enclosed indoors. So when it rained, we could smell the rain, hear the thunder, and see flashes of lightning. I like that feeling. It was almost perfect.
It made me miss Samuel quite abit. Its like midweek. I cant wait for Saturday to come. I hope he doesnt throw me a bomb saying he got confined or sth. I dont think I will survive. Ah, come home quickly. =(
I realised, I've come to a point in the relationship where I can accept all his shortcomings and see them as a part of him. There was the blind stage when he was just perfect, then the stage when suddenly his ugly side just glares in your face, den you keep wanting to change it, den you just get to tired you want to give up in the relationship, and now, I'm back to the blind stage again. But this time, I'm blind cause I alr know. You let yourself become blind again cause you have seen everything.
I really love Samuel, and I think right now, I will want to see him in my future. =)
Its strange how we dont contact, but here I am falling more for him. WEIRD. Reflections make me WEIRD.
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HandWritten on; 2:42 AM
Val doesnt like guys who talks loudly and talks alot and just cant stop talking.
A.K.A the guy sitting opposite me now.
Val doesnt like girls who are sticky to their bf when he is hao-lianing to the world what he does.
A.K.A the girl lying on the guy sitting opposite me.
Nomis bravely ordered a bowl of chilli soup. HAHAH!
The SMU YCC leaders. So nice to happen to have dinner with them today. Heh. =))) Its almost like a reunion.
Bye bye 2009 Term 1. Time does pass really quickly. Like a bullet maglev train or sth. I must say, this sem I got the perfect timetable. The Mon-Wed timetable, with no breaks in between and I get to leave school early afternoon. But I've learnt that the perfect timetable is not a perfect study plan. I'm not admitting defeat before the exams, but I didnt quite enjoy myself this Sem. Not in school but I enjoyed alot outside school. Is this the memories of SMU that I want to take away when I graduate? Do I want memories of SMU or do I want memories of the freedom of tertiary education?
Baking was successful today! Raspberry crumble, served with Milo icecream (I only had milo icecream at home). It may not look very appealing, but it tastes goooooood. Sweetness of the crumble with the tingling sour taste of the melted raspberries. Shiok shiok. =)
